Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Frustrated

My weight is staying right around the same few numbers. It hasn't gone up as high as my starting weight, but has been hovering in the same 5-pound range. I'm doing a Biggest Loser competition with some friends, and for my official weigh-in this week, I'm up .5 pounds.

I'm eating about 1200-1300 calories each day, and working out 4 days a week. I feel a *little* trimmer, but the scale is driving me bonkers.

Confession

(I was going to post this a few days ago, I'll try to write it from that perspective.)

I took a few days off. Not intentionally. Life just got busy.

Thursday - no time for the gym
Friday - gym, decent eating
Saturday - EXHAUSTED. I slept during my free time for the gym. Ate fine during the day, but went out for Mexican and it was bloody delicious.
Sunday - baby's baptism, busy busy busy. Ate not so bad...not great, but not bad.
Monday - food fine, no gym because I was still exhausted
Tuesday - back on track

I wasn't pleased with myself for skipping the gym 4/6 days, and while my eating wasn't perfect (mmmm...enchiladas!), it wasn't as bad as it could have been. Instead of saying, "well, I'm having junk for dinner, might as well go hog wild all day" - I kept the other meals in check. This is improvement, people.

Why am I so flippin' tired all the time? It's getting ridiculous.

Friday, April 23, 2010

No way!

I didn't go to the gym yesterday - too busy, plus a day off wasn't a bad thing.

And you know what - I sorta missed it. A little. Crazy.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Take that, Wendy's!

Starting a diet/exercise program last week turned out to be...well, not the best timing. There is a ton going on in my life right now, which is keeping me very busy and pretty stressed. Usually a great combination for bad habits.

I had today all planned out, then things changed and everything was different. Ended up leaving the house around lunchtime. Hadn't eaten lunch, and needed a Diet Coke. (I'm completely, totally, utterly addicted to FOUNTAIN Diet Coke.) So I hit the drive-thru at Wendy's. Here I was - lunch time, hadn't eaten, running around like a chicken with my head cut-off, trying to accomplish a million different things - in the drive-thru.

Those who know me, know where this is headed...

Except - I JUST GOT A DIET COKE.

This is huge, folks. HUGE.

Goal 1 - DONE

Down 5.5 pounds since last Monday! I get to get a pedicure this weekend! *happy dance*

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

run run run

I RAN A MILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which may not be a big deal for some people, but is the furthest I've run in well over a year, maybe two.

Monday, April 19, 2010

One Week Down

The first week went OK. 5 great days of eating, 2 not so great. 4 cardio sessions, 2 upper, 2 core, 1 lower. Would have preferred 1 more cardio and 1 more lower, but things got hectic. This week is going to be really hectic as well - will do my best to fit in 4 cardios, hopefully 5.

I feel pretty confident - got a little off track this weekend, and next weekend is the little one's christening, so there will be another day of food-based socializing to contend with, but I will do my best to not go out of control. This week is going to be extremely hectic - already a lot going on, and now some last-minute emergencies to deal with as well, so who knows what will happen.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Coming Clean

Today was not the best day.

It was the first weekend day. For several years, I've been in the habit of going to Einstein Bros. Bagels and getting a blueberry muffin for breakfast on the weekends. Today Client and I (and little one) headed out to do an errand. Client said, "are we stopping [at Einstein]," and I said no, with hesitation. We ran our errand, then I caved and had him stop.

I was feeling stressed - had some sort of bad news this morning. I felt deflated and just UGH. This is not a reason to have a muffin.

This afternoon we went to a birthday party. I had:
-3 glasses of wine
-a few potato chips
-tortilla chips and spinach dip
-tortilla chips and mexican dip
-broccoli and dip
-salad
-jello
-roll
-lasagna
-cake

And the cake was damn good. I'm full enough that I won't eat dinner, but definitely ate more than I needed to at the party. (following even more, worse news.) Didn't work out - due to time constraints and needing a rest day anyhow. I did walk to/from the party, probably a mile round-trip.

Hoping to gym tomorrow, but have several other things I need to accomplish as well - while I want to make the gym a priority, these other errands really can't wait either. I guess worst-case I'll gym in the evening.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Keepin' at It

Had a nice workout - 20 minutes cardio then full-body weights. I'm so lucky to have family who will watch the little one for a few hours each week.

Tempted to have junk food tonight - was thinking pizza slices (an improvement over getting a whole pizza....) but we have a birthday party tomorrow - I will get my junk fix then.

Client is going to be losing weight this way too.

May attempt running tomorrow.....ooh boy.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

boo-yah

I just kicked the shit out of that elliptical!

Dare I Learn a Lesson?

I'm down 2.5 pounds! (Ok...1/2 lb of that may be clothes). But my pants are a bit looser, which is a BIG YAY!

And therefore - I am tempted to eat junk. I feel thinner, I must be doing something right - so now I can loosen up a little.

You'd never know I spent 3 years learning how to think logically.

And today would have been a very easy day to eat junk. I had to rush out of the house this morning to work, then ran around after work (yeah, work lasted like 2 hours - unemployment rules!) and it would have been easiest to stop at a drive-thru.

But I did not. I did not. And that folks, is victory right there.

Fitting in the gym is going to be tough today, but I missed yesterday so I will make it this evening after the little one is in bed.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

oooh boy

I think I'll take a day off from working out. I'm fairly sore, and timing will be an issue. Instead I'll walk the little one to the park, about 2 miles round-trip.

I'm down a pound since Monday, and today is the official start of my friend's Biggest Loser competition - woot!

Tomorrow I'm working in the morning, and I think I can go to the gym after that while my dad still has Little One - 2 birds/1 stone.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Again?

Stop me if you've heard this one...

er, don't. Because I've said it before. A million times before. I want to lose weight.

yeah, I know - stop the presses. I've attempted weight loss, oh, 5489415425 times. I've been (relatively) successful once. Big whoop.

I've been battling my weight for a solid 12 years. I've been unhappy with my body much longer. I suck at losing weight. Why do I think it will be different this time? Well, I don't. Not necessarily. But I'm nearly 50 pounds overweight. I have to at least try.

As for actual running - we'll see how my knees feel about that.